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Guys, I have a tumblr. You should follow me and stuff. Because I'm pretty cool Okay probably not but follow me anyway. A lot more of my art goes up there. There's a lot of other stuff too, I guess, but if you type in art in the tags thing, you'll pretty much get everything.
/Does not know how to tumblr. Or use tumblr terminology.
EDIT: Apparently I don't know how to common sense either. Here's a link. biiwiinniing.tumblr.com/

All the cool kids seem to be doing it, why not?

The problem is, I wouldn't really know where to start. I'm just thankful for so much.

My art, for one, it's gotten me through everything from the most boring of lectures to the shittiest of days. It gives me something I can both look back on and see how far I've come, and look forward to and see how far I will go.

Homestuck, as stupid as it sounds, I owe a lot to it. It gave me something to look forward to, and helped me enjoy art again. I draw almost every day (though most of it never gets posted since I don't have a scanner) I swear I'm drawing more than when I started the 365 day challenge on New Years. And the fandom, wow. Never before have I been surrounded by such AMAZING, talented people. For the most part, it's one of the most inviting fandoms I've seen. When Cascade was released for the first time, and the entire fandom it seemed, stayed up ENTIRELY too late, just to see it, and I felt connected somehow. Like we were all in it together, and I wasn't alone when I was half dead the next day at school. A fandom has never made me feel like that.

My friends. As cliche as THAT is, they're all amazing. They're simply the best people and I sometimes wonder why they hang out with me ...Clearly because I have food..  They're usually a handful, what with them getting into fights with each other all the time, but I don't mind. I may not share as much in common with a lot of them, but that's the best part I think, we still manage to hang out and have a lot to talk about. And then of course there are my friends that I share EVERYTHING in common with, oh god the hilarious and epic conversations that take place. Ohgodisitbadthatthehomestucksectionwaslongerthanmyfriendssection? Haha, it's not that Homestuck is more important than my friends, I just don't think it's possible to simplify anything Homestuck related.

My family. I love them, highly dysfunctional as the entire thing may be, it's made me who I am, and I've come out a better(?) person because of it. My parents aren't bad people, I just don't agree with any of their opinions. If anything, they taught me independence, that those older than you aren't always right and don't deserve instant respect, and to have my own opinions (but be able to change them when I'm wrong without being stubborn). They've led me to look at my life and choices, and let me tell you, it's a lot easier making yourself a better person if you've fully acknowledged yourself at your worst.

Music. All there is to say on the matter

My Watchers, hell, anyone who takes the time out to look at the shitty pile of shit I try to pass off as art Really, I jump up and down with glee every time I get a favorite, and every time I get a COMMENT? Oh my god I about die from shock. So, all my love to you guys, honestly. You all make me so happy

I could honestly go on and on here, but damn this is turning into War and Peace. I'm thankful for all the little things, Some of them not even necessarily good things. I'm thankful for sadness, to add diversity to life. I'm thankful for rock bottom, because the only place left to go from there is up. I'm thankful for power outages, that bring families together. And I'm thankful for The Room, because you just can't have too many incredibly shitty movies in the world.

TL;DR:I'm thankful for ALL THE THINGS. Happy Thanksgiving you guys.

I feel like I've been lazy long enough plus I need to actually update my journal from time to time, so I'm going to make a checklist of things to study until I just flip a table and say "Fuck this, I'm drawing some fanart" (Which I hope will take a LITTLE longer than two minutes.) I'll probably do something quick before I start though, I'm in an art mood.
Hands
Clothes. Oh god the clothes.
Face shape and proportions
Legs. Seriously, I have so much trouble with them all the time.
Fur
Hair
...Lineart. Oh god now that I put that down I HAVE to practice it. Just thinking about it makes me want to throw my tablet.
Color and light sources.
Style. I'm still trying to figure out what works for me and what doesn't, though I'm not going to worry about this one too much, I think my style will work itself out eventually.

Now that finals are over and I get a break from school, I can actually have time to study... weirdest sentence ever if it's taken out of context.

Sadly, life is too complicated to keep up drawing every day. I missed a day, and it was a downhill spiral from that. I also realized, my grades were dropping, nothing dramatic, but it would probably turn into something dramatic. I'd rather not redo chemistry. lol

I'm at such a discouraging time in my art. It's to the point where my work isn't completely crappy, but I see so much room to improve. Nothing I cranked out in a day was ever good enough for me. I'm not the type that can draw for an hour, and make something decent. I didn't bother uploading anything after a bit (once I missed the day, I think), but I got to day 73. I'll upload some of my nicer works eventually, but a lot of it was just unacceptable.

So, this is my walk of shame. I'm stubborn, but after much (much) denial, I know when to accept defeat. Who knows? I may spring back next year. Or the year after. I WILL do this before I die, I promise that. lol

Just so people know, I didn't give up, in fact, I HAVE been keeping up with my drawings. I'm just taking a sort of extended leave from dA, with finals again, (really, the term "finals" is a terrible misnomer... they're never "final") Speaking of, another reason for my leave is my OCD attitude while playing Final Fantasy XIII. For about a week, my resolve was "Beat this game, THEN you can move on with life" I beat it a few days ago, needless to say, I'm not buying any video games for awhile. =/ (spring break at least!)

So, I expect to be putting up 57497543 or so deviations soon xD. (Though I'm seriously almost ashamed of half of them xD I've been so lazy)